Growing Up.

I have no idea how to describe what I am feeling.

It's this overwhelming sadness of moving beyond my endless imaginations, to watching life and love play out in all of its complexities...

You would think that I would be happy, after years of dreaming and analyzing and hoping....years filled with laughter and wistful sighs. But at this point in time I cannot seem to move past this ache, as those years fade into memories of long ago, and I gaze into the unknown...unsure of my footing and the security that comes with youth.

The tears are there though....as I try to convince myself that I haven't lost anything...and won't...yeah, my heart doesn't believe that just yet.

Change is hard.